Sunday, October 30, 2005
Lost in myriad of thoughts, wonder when to stop....forget it. There's simply no point pursuing it further. not as if there would be an answer. but seriously, im flabbergusted. or should i say, apprehensive?What if history really repeats itself? It just has the propensity of happening again. And that is when lucidity remains best. all the innocuous reamarks.... perhaps ostensible? i have no idea. but guess it should also be a lesson to learn from. *sticks and stones may break my bones and words hurt me deeply*Eveything has its causes and effects. The effects seems to have a lasting impact. There's just hideous scar which could never be get rid of. it just seemed so difficult to exonerate someone from what he/she has done.wait. Why do i seem to bear a grudge? what on earth am i becoming?! Contradicting. NATO. why can't i even think wat wrong have i done?! this is outrageous. I seemed to have been possessed. i cant even recognise who i am. All those shabby works, harsh remarks and accusations.... it's really atrocious. What has got into me?i seemed to be separated. so near yet so far. There's only one way to get rid of that invisible barrier-you.i cant remain like this forever. Please, wake me up.pull me out of this nightmare.bring me back to a placewhere i truly belong to.my passion.... has changed to apprehension.
-drowning in an abyss of ignorance.
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