Friday, October 14, 2005
I seemed to have a heavy load on my mind. It is neither a burden nor a problem to me. I created it anyway and i'm determined to finish it. "sighh. So tiring. just give up""no. Since when i started to be like this?"If you embark on somthing, finish it, nicely and happily, with neither complains nor sorrows.And i will. i hope.It seems to be playing tricks with me. contradicting, hurtful, tiring. BUt i don't wanna a break. I can't afford to lose, just this time to do what i wanna do. The anxiety seems to have dissipated. At least, my mind was at ease. i could at last feel the serenity and tranquilty which i had always wanter...But i doubt so. Things are definately coming up. May it be good or bad. At least there are its pros and cons. Can't expect everything to be smooth sailing. I would like to, but i know it will never happen. It's just leading me a world of illusions...sighh.Let me see a glimmer of hope.
-drowning in an abyss of ignorance.
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